That slogan has been the complete opposite for me!
Before I came here I was under the impression it was going to very nice here. we could both get jobs,go back to school, explore the island and how much his mom would love to be around the kids. Well it turns out none of this was true.
I can't get a job because I don't speak spanish(not even as a maid trust me I've tried) even axel had a hard time getting a job here, so the whole school idea went out the window! I still haven't seen most of the island.
Now let me explain why we even moved here: his mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's about a year before we got here and she was call him crying that she need help and how lonely she was well finally we had decided it was best if we packed up our family to help her. What a big fucking mistake that was!!!
I came here with the BEST intention but I had no clue what I was walking into,knowing all the things I know about her now even things from before she was diagnosed I would have NEVER EVER agreed to come here!!!
It didn't take long for my HELL to start.
Within the first few days she told us she didn't like Isabela because "she's too crazy" Isabela was only 15 months when we moved here! She has reminded Isabela everyday for the last 2 1/2 yrs that she doesn't like her. Examples: Bela would knock on her door and she would open the door and see Bela,make a disgusted grunt and the close the in her face Bela would start crying so I would pick her up to console her ,in the meantime DJ would do the same thing and she would pick him up give him kisses and let sit in her bed then Bela would try to climb in her bed and she would let her.
She would only take DJ for walks in the stroller and never wanted to take Bela and Bela would just sit there and cry at the door.
It bothered his mother that Bela would be playing with her toys and had them on the floor so she would take them away and then make fun of Bela for crying! SERIOUSLY WHAT KIND OF PERSON DOES THAT TO A BABY!!!!!! She wasn't even 2 yet! Well it didn't take long for me to put an end to all this, the kids and I would sit in their room all day and hide from her and she was no longer allowed to be around my kids because I had enough of everything. If you can't love both my kids then you don't get to be around either of my kids!
Now for the things Axel and I went through: she started in on me right away with the fat jokes because I'm overweigh- ya know because that soooo hilarious right???? Its called baby weight and I'm still having a hard time losing it but I've dropped 30 lbs :)I haven't been overweight my whole life and who cares if I was!!!
She would always tell axel how worthless and stupid he is and how he should be more like his brother.
That we should get the fuck outta her house she didn't want us and the kids in here( this coming from the same woman who was crying and begging us to come out here)
I have been her personal maid because axel was working and going to school so he wasn't really home so I was the one who had to deal with all this shit! Now when I say her personal maid I mean it! She would call for me to come in the kitchen and tell me to pour her some water or whatever she wanted and she would stand there waiting with a cup in her hand...yeah like I'm gonna do that!
The kids and I would go a week or long without leaving the house,it was almost like being in prison. Because Axel had such a busy schedule and I refused to walk anywhere with out him because the people around scared the shit outta me!
Because where I live there are junkies everywhere,people are so hostile here it seems like people are always looking for fights and from my balcony I've seen cars being broken into,people getting robbed and the never ending sound of gun shots. Thays why I would never leave alone and to local people this isn't even a bad area. LOL
I finally understand what its like to be an immigrant in the U.S.A people literally treat me like I'm a contagious cancer because I speak english, some people that live in the same buiding as me look at me like I'm retarded and whisper as I walk by.
Its manditory to learn english here from 1-12 grade and the majority of people can't speak english but I'm the stupid american. LMAO
I've gotten into arguments with a "friend" of Axel's because he hates american because were all stupid and he hopes we all die. Literally that's what came out of his mouth. One night he started saying that kind of stuff because I said I didn't like Mariah Carey LOL how pathetic is that??? Now that I've had time to think things through I'm sure he said that because for a moment it made himself feel better about his life,30 smoke pot all day, doesn't work, still lives with his mama. But yet I'm worthless because I'm an American! But she doesn't have a problem collecting U.S Government assistance.... I use to be offended by all this but now I can sees peoples ignorance.
Then last summer after Axel,the kids and I are kinda setteling in and keep our sanity from all the chaos in the house Axel gets an email from his EX, even 5 yrs later she still feels the need to make her presence known. She attempted to cause a fight between Axel and I but it didn't work :) but at one point she was even living in the same building as us and she never had the balls to say anything but she waited months after she moved to try and cause problem.I guess she was just bored or having problems with her B/F . All it did was prove how pathetic and lonely she is! Some people have a hard time understand that the universe doesn't revolve around them and that they belong in the past...
Trying to deal with everything was really hard because I had noone to talk to only my mom,my brothers don't talk to me and "friends" don't care. I was lierally alone!
So in the mist of all this I completly had a mental breakdown and lost my mind. I couldn't take anymore even threatened to leave Axel but the bond the he and I have it too strong! We are not the problem its everything else around us!
One of the many things that make me angry about coming here is the money that we used to come here was suppose to be for fixing my crooked teeth! So now I'm 24 and still look like a freak! So we wasted that money and wasted the last 2 1/2 years for what??? This was never deserved, the effect its had on my kids is sick!
Axel and I keep saying how this was the worst mistake we ever made but at the same time it was good because after going through hell I have completely discovered myself and all this has made mine and Axels relationship stronger than its ever been! So I guess I should thank everyone for making my life completly miserable.
So we only have a few more things to get in order and then we are finally moving and we can finally live a peaceful normal life and have a fresh start! I think we've earned it and my kids deserve it! They should have never had to go through any of this!
